I LAHH TAYLAHH. (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} backbeatxrhythm) wrote,@ 2009-03-16 10:10:00 |
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i still love you, BAY BAAAAYYYYY
cc came to visit at the beginning of the month and it made a lot of things really clear, which is awesome. clearly, he is content to settle in chicago trapped in a relationship that i don't even think HE understands, and, while of course that fact hurt me at first, i decided my standards are WAY higher than that. i do love him and i did really think it was going to work, but i'm okay without him. i always think about his happiness and i hope he gets to where he wants to be, because he really deserves it. i think if it were up to him, i'd still be here hanging on pining after him. i choose instead to go out on dates. and truthfully, for a few weeks now a minor crush on a guy at work has been brewing...and it's just turned into a MAJOR one. and everyone thinks he's sexy as hell AND EVERYONE ALSO THINKS HE LIKES ME TOO, which i can't believe. so i'm prepared for a REAL date very soon.
i am losing weight without even trying and it feels great. jeans that haven't fit me since high school are loose and i can't believe it. even looking at my icon is startling because my face was so much rounder. when i look in the mirror now, i'm starting to see the michelle i remember - the one who was pretty and adventurous with lots of friends and plenty of guys who found her attractive. i'm on my way to skinny me and i'm enjoying the journey!
rachel called me last week and you could have knocked me over dead. i missed that girl and we talked for almost an hour. i'm glad she's back in my life because i love all those bitches, no matter what. :)
summation? life is fucking beautiful right now.
cc came to visit at the beginning of the month and it made a lot of things really clear, which is awesome. clearly, he is content to settle in chicago trapped in a relationship that i don't even think HE understands, and, while of course that fact hurt me at first, i decided my standards are WAY higher than that. i do love him and i did really think it was going to work, but i'm okay without him. i always think about his happiness and i hope he gets to where he wants to be, because he really deserves it. i think if it were up to him, i'd still be here hanging on pining after him. i choose instead to go out on dates. and truthfully, for a few weeks now a minor crush on a guy at work has been brewing...and it's just turned into a MAJOR one. and everyone thinks he's sexy as hell AND EVERYONE ALSO THINKS HE LIKES ME TOO, which i can't believe. so i'm prepared for a REAL date very soon.
i am losing weight without even trying and it feels great. jeans that haven't fit me since high school are loose and i can't believe it. even looking at my icon is startling because my face was so much rounder. when i look in the mirror now, i'm starting to see the michelle i remember - the one who was pretty and adventurous with lots of friends and plenty of guys who found her attractive. i'm on my way to skinny me and i'm enjoying the journey!
rachel called me last week and you could have knocked me over dead. i missed that girl and we talked for almost an hour. i'm glad she's back in my life because i love all those bitches, no matter what. :)
summation? life is fucking beautiful right now.
